Comments on: a slave’s insecurity

By: LRKorvet

LRKorvet — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 22:52:27 +0000

I enjoyed your entry and am glad you did spite your reluctance. I am in the midst of possibly getting involved with someone who wants a master-slave relationship. It is building on line and I am new to this. Today he sent me a message via YIM as a request: I want you to write me a long email explaining your own discovery and awarness of the sub or slave in you to this point including any impotant milestones on that path-and then I want you to tell me what your idealized vision of your life as slave And lastly what your understanding is of what it means in terms of your daily rituals to be this Masters slut.
When I read this I had a panic attack and tears ran down my face. I didnt know how to react to this since I am new so I didnt think I had the right answers for him. Plus the words slave, master, slut all have such negative connotations. I want to please him and I feel so connected but at the same time it is confusing because of society. Your entry made me feel more comfortable and that it is ok to want a relationship like this. I still dont know what to write to me potential master but your entry and replies made me realize that all I have to be is open and honest.

By: desiree

desiree — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 13:57:43 +0000

Update: Master gave me 2 spanks on the bottom for not following protocol. Am very happy that he was so lenient.

By: desiree

desiree — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 22:37:41 +0000

You’re very welcome, Amber. It’s always nice to find jewels such as your blog.

Daddy sounds like a caring Dom-in-training. If He would like to communicate more with Master S, please let me know. Master is an insightful, intelligent individual who proceeds only after he’s given the moment some thought.

By: Amber

Amber — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 22:13:54 +0000

i think the same thing. You need to let your feelings out in your blog. i can understand the insecurities as well. i’m still new to the world and Daddy definitely is. He is now using my blog as a way to understand how my mind is working. Anything that affects me he wants to know. You did very well posting this post.

Thanks for leaving your comment on my blog. It was much appreciated.

By: desiree

desiree — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 19:35:07 +0000

hey b – i’ve found blogging to be good for the soul as well. In the editing process, what may have started out as a bit of a rant eventually gets fine-tuned into what the real issue is. It does help me define it with more clarity.

It’s a great release, indeed!

By: desiree

desiree — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 19:30:30 +0000

Thank you, Violeta. Your reply is very welcomed.

As it is, Master is contemplating some type of correction as i didn’t follow protocol before getting out of bed last night (even though i was well-intentioned and didn’t want to disturb him further).

There are times when i commiserate with the proverbial bug on the windshield. But thankfully, there are enough pleasant times to make up for it.

By: slave b

slave b — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 19:27:05 +0000

I agree with Violeta completely – I personally use my blog as a journal most of the time, so I try to be honest about everything I’m thinking on there – it makes for a good way of getting some of the rubbish out of my head for her to see what is really going on in there

By: Violeta

Violeta — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 18:08:44 +0000

You did very well in publishing this entry despite your reluctance; he needs to know what’s going on in your mind and the state of your emotional health in order to nip things in the bud rather than have insecurities pile up and cause unnecessary fretting.

You’re allowed to feel negative emotions, as long as you don’t act out on them. For all you now it’s something completely unrelated to you.

If the feelings persist, you would do good in seeking audience with him just to point out your need for reasurence. The mind tends to make a heaven of hell, or a hell out of heaven, as Milton said, and it loves to play tricks on us.