rebelling against Master’s authority

Sometimes we don’t like being corrected…okay, more than just “sometimes”. We chafe at the thought that another person places themselves in a position of authority. Our inner child stomps its foot and rebels against the fact that someone is calling us on our behavior.

Recently Master S found it necessary to provide “correction”. i broke what was his most set-in-stone rule…being appropriately naked at all times. i’d agreed beforehand to being “au naturale” unless other people were around, and i also knew the severity of breaking this rule. Still i erred and set in motion the most recent chain of events. (see previous posts)

At first, i was mentally stomping my foot. Pleading my case, as it wasn’t the norm for me to disregard this very important rule. Yet when the dust settled, the fact remained that i had indeed messed up. This placed Master S in a bit of a predicament. He could empathize with His pet and go on as if nothing had occurred, or He could enforce the consequences of my crossing the proverbial line in the sand.

Though He is a caring Master, i’d usurped his control. That fact couldn’t be ignored. Thus i had to serve out the consequences. No one could say that i wasn’t aware of what might happen as we’ve talked about almost every aspect of this relationship at length…even what could be expected for breaking the rules.

i’m still in training and Master S has on many occasions given warnings rather than punishment. For that, i’m very grateful. Changing one’s behavior and responses can be a difficult thing and it most definitely doesn’t happen overnight. Being mindful and aware at all times – without feeling like i’m walking on eggshells – is the goal.

Also…i hate making mistakes, which helps Master S achieve his goal in progressing me to “ideal slave” status. Some slaves delight in breaking rules as they look forward to the punishment, but that’s not me. i’d rather serve Master in a seamless, attentive manner, looking after His needs with the utmost of care.

But still, i made a mistake…and received the consequences of such. My pride was wounded more than anything else. Now i’m eager to reconnect with Master on a deeper level. We’re in this together, and i plan on doing my utmost to see that we remain that way.