Being the Dom…Punishment vs Compassion

So here it is, a normal Sunday afternoon, and then it happens, a severe infraction of the rules by slave desiree.  It was during a relatively normal situation for us.  Desiree was in the bathroom, just stepping out of the shower.  I happened to walk in as she was drying, and, in a passionate moment, we started to kiss.  After a couple minutes of this, I ordered her to go to the bed so that we could elevate the amore.  She eagerly complied. 

Laying on her back, hips on the edge so that I can have easy access to her genitalia, I start gently licking her pussy.  This is an activity in which I take great pleasure and can do literally for hours.  I love the smell, taste, wetness, and, most importantly, her response to my efforts.  I know I may be the Dom, but I love performing this “submissive” sex act for desiree.

Anyway, she is responding to my efforts in a positive manner, moving her hips up and down so that she can “masturbate” on my tongue, which is resting on the opening of her urethra (the spot she likes the most).  In my excitement, I move my lips up to her clit, and start to suck on it…and the clit ring at the same time.  Apparently this action caused much pain, because it caused her to perform a “felony”; she told me to “stop”.

There are only two felony infractions in my book for my slave: 1) not being naked in my presence, and 2) not immediately complying with an order, or asking me to stop during some activity.  Since these are serious mistakes, I take the correction just as seriously.  So where’s the problem?  I should just render the punishment and move on, just like it states in most every document or book that you read on “how to be a Dom”.   The problem is the fact that I do love her, and she loves me, and it is difficult to determine the appropriate sentence while her tears are dropping on my face.  I know she does not like pain.  I am sure that she would do most anything to avoid a punishment, and really does go out of her way to please me.  She did not make the mistake willingly, as the dreaded word “stop” just slipped, almost unconsciously, out of her mouth.  She was definitely upset that such a pleasurable, tender, loving moment turned suddenly into a felonious predicament.  It wasn’t like she absolutely refused to carry out a direct command, or pranced around me with her clothes on.  No, this was just an innocent slip of the tongue.

However, if I let this infraction slide by, what good is my word?  I told her long ago that if she ever told me to stop, that it would have serious consequences.  She even agreed that this should be a punishable offence.  But the tears keep flowing. And the look on her face is one of extreme sadness, not fear of an impending torment, but sadness.  I must have missed the chapter in the “How To Be a Dom” book explaining how to punish a person you love, someone you value as more than just a BDSM play partner.  Damn, this 24/7 Dom/sub stuff is truly hard to live if you love each other, and the sub is not into pain, but the Dom is (at least to a certain degree).

My desiree knows that a felony punishment is meant to be harsh, and definitely more painful than anything we have done up to this point.  This should be so intense that she will never think of doing this misdeed ever again, regardless of the circumstances.  My goal, after all, is to have a perfectly trained slave that performs all tasks to a standard of excellence, not one that I have to punish frequently to get the desired results.  And definitely not one that would willingly break one of the two cardinal sins that I have carefully spelled out for her.

So after careful thought, I decided on a punishment that is meant for a much less harsh crime:  ten hard spanks with a hairbrush.  I thought about adding in a full day of drinking my urine as well, since I know she does not particularly like that activity, but then I passed on that idea.  I did, however, let her know that another breach of this agreement would result is a severe punishment suitable for a felonious act.  I actually felt good about my decision, because I know deep down that desiree is doing her best to make my life great, and that I would receive no pleasure in carrying out a harsh sentence. 

In this case, compassion was a greater thrill than the sadistic joy of delivering torment.  After announcing my sentence, desiree smiled in approval, knowing that I was giving her a mindful, and just, punishment.

We ended this session with three orgasms for her, one very good for myself, and the satisfaction that we worked through yet another problem faced by a loving couple that is trying to make this alternative lifestyle work.