a sub’s spiritual growth – losing possessions

i’m signing over my possessions to Master to complete His ownership of me. This has given rise to much thought of the concept of ownership, as in my attachment to “things”. In our last moments of life, do we really value the “things” we have? Not that i know of!

As with most people, i’ve come to identify with some of my possessions. Handing them over – though painful – is a great spiritual practice. While this doesn’t automatically free my ego from finding other things to identify with, it’s a start. Certainly, i don’t purport myself to be “holier than thou” merely by renouncing my material possessions. That in itself would be feeding the ego in an unhealthy manner.

When one thinks about it, having ownership is an abstract concept. “I have, therefore I am. The more I have, the more I am.” It all comes down to our preoccupation with how we’re seen by others. We use how others view us as a mirror to our own value. It’s a collective delusion and certainly embedded within us from an early age.

My goal is to recognize when i’m seeking self-identity in things or even labels (such as “slave”).  Becoming upset or anxious means that i have attachment to those things or situations.

Eckhart Tolle says, “When we think ‘I don’t have enough yet’, what we’re really saying is ‘I am not enough yet”. The ego is seeking validity and a sense of permanence to make itself special. Our egos want us to think that “having” is a way to fulfillment. Don’t get me wrong, having ego is the catalyst to people doing purposeful things with their lives…but noticing when it gets in the way is a mindful practice.

i’m choosing to view the transition of signing over my material possessions to Master as a path to inner growth. It’s walking without the illusion of a safety net…a clear realization that all things change or dissolve over time. As uncomfortable as it is, my dependence on Master will increase by this single act. It’s letting go of the balance pole with which one walks the tightrope. i have to trust not only in Master, but in the spirit that guides me.

Satisfaction needs to come from a source within. As the saying goes, we are spirits having a human experience, not humans having a spiritual experience.