First, i’d like to thank luna for her words on dealing with pain. You see, i’m not a pain-junkie. i don’t crave it, nor particularly enjoy it all that much. But Master S does…and that’s where the struggle comes in.

If i don’t like pain, then why endure it? Why would i continue to be in a lifestyle where my body would be used in that manner? Master S kept asking me to figure it out. It was perplexing to him as well, but now i’ve come to terms with the reasons.

As luna said, if we’re not hard-wired to enjoy pain, then we can learn to find peace and joy in handling what our Masters serve up to us. THIS is the answer, and it feels right. Being of a submissive nature, i want to please. This is yet another way for me to take pride in serving.

It’s not about being a martyr or victim. It’s about providing service for the man i adore. Plain and simple.

Would love to hear thoughts on this topic from other subs. (hard-wired or not)